As my boi would always say, “Ain’t gonna lie…,” before unpacking what was on his […]
Tag: Child Loss
The White Flower
Julian was always looking for a quiet moment to sneak away and go spearfishing. Often, […]
Homesick
As I try and integrate myself into the here and now, I am reminded of […]
Get Up, Momma
As I struggled in my puddle on the shower floor, my Boi’s gentle, calm voice cut through the pain, “Get up momma. You don’t belong down there!”
Paulina was here…
Paulina was here. It was sooo nice!!! She stayed three days and four nights… But, […]
Wandering Between Worlds
Days, weeks, and months seem to meld together in such a way that life seems […]
I DO NOT Want To Do This.
When Josie died, I was overwhelmed with thoughts of, “How do I do this?!!!” Every […]
Cpl “V” Julian Varela Martinez Nov. 26, 1999-Feb. 4, 2022
Cpl Victor Julian Varela Martinez, passed from this life to the next on the night […]
Somewhere Above the Fog
Lucid dreams by night often become blurry by dawn, and the light of a new […]
Lean In, Look Up, Take Heart.
I never could have imagined five years ago that I would be witnessing multitudes of […]
Finding Joy After Loss… Is it even possible?
At first, loss can feel like you are living in an absolute nightmare, except you […]
Never Count Your Tortillas
My Grandma Frances always said, “You should never count your tortillas!” This sage wisdom becomes […]